*grow spiritually close to God.
*have good results.
*go overseas.
*learn korean language.
it's raining outside now. so is my heart. i told myself not to give up.but im disappointed once again. i told myself that results is not that impt. but tears just roll down my cheeks when i saw the results.
i wonder.. i really wonder if i can survive for the next 2 and a half years. did i really make the right choice to accept this offer. it is sooo tough. i totally feel like giving up. but thinking of how my parents encouraged me during my exam period. it somehow makes me dont feel like giving up.
i dont know. i have no idea what's going on next. setbacks after setbacks. can I really stand up and be firm again?? i really wonder.
how i wish.. i didnt enter to this course. how i wish.. i can know right now that my choice is wrong. so that i can move on to the right one.
shld i continue to hold on to this..? or shld i give up on this..?
maybe this is a punishment. for not being attentive in class. for not studying hard enough. for not setting my priorities correctly.
give it a try next sem? i really don't know.. shld i?
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